I don’t know what the statistics are, but people often associate the homeless with mental illness. Having gone through my own path towards homelessness, I have become increasingly convinced that people aren’t homeless because they are mentally ill. They are mentally ill because they are homeless. I have truly believed this, and now there is […]
Not up to writing much today. Emotionally spent. But wanted to post a petition that I created a while back in regards to the denial of disability accommodations by the Bellingham Housing Authority and Dept. of Housing and Urban Development. Perhaps if anyone reads this blog, they will be willing to read and sign the […]
Had to have my 20-year-old cat put down today. Not unexpected, but the loss itself, no less painful. In fact, it left an emptiness beyond what I had anticipated. He, Neptune, had been with me through so much of my life. Wow, nearly half of it. He was there when my life was good. When […]
Spent much of the afternoon daydreaming. A fantasy of finally having enough money to be normal again; to pursue some goals and purpose again; to feel like part of society again. I imagined the fear gone; the tension; the constant adrenalin and disconnect from reality. I felt the strain leave the muscles in my face […]
I’ve been having to battle the inclination to believe that this will just resolve itself – or that it is already resolved. It’s almost a subconscious thing; not like I’m consciously saying to myself “everything will turn out fine”. But I catch these thoughts, or attitudes, in the back of my mind that keep steering […]
It’s becoming more difficult to write about what’s happening. My first couple postings were actually therapeutic. And were also the first time in a long while that writing about it was. I haven’t been able to write or talk about it for quite some time. The result has been more detrimental than helpful. There is […]
In some ways, this country is not really much different than many other countries. It kills some of its people too. It just does so in a way that is more insidious. I heard a report yesterday on NPR about similar problems in Spain with evictions (hell, it seems to be a global problem these […]
The isolation becomes more and more necessary. At the same time I resent the isolation that moving toward homelessness has forced upon me, just when I had reached a time in my life when I began to appreciate and perhaps even need a little social interaction, I have also found myself seeking more of it […]
Each day brings me closer to the inevitable. The feeling is indescribable. Shock? Yes, that. But something else too. Not numb. That would probably be welcome. Not really flat either. I felt that after Fred died and this isn’t it. It’s a sort of fear; panic. But it’s without movement. It’s immobile. But not the […]
I believe I know how some people can wind up out on the lawn with all their belongings, despite the fact that it takes some time before a landlord can legally and literally kick you out. It’s because it is so impossible to believe the reality of actually losing your shelter; the impossibility of believing you […]
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